Things on my mind...

     Have you ever had God constantly bring something to your mind? I can think of many missionaries who had God do that in their lives, and some friends who watched as God did that as well. I know God had His reasons for leading them the way He did, but I feel terrible sorry for them. I think I have the easy end of this bargain. You see, God has been bringing something up in my mind for some time now. Well, actually...it's multiple things. All of which, like my friends and fellow Christians before me, has to do with my future.

     A missionary I can think of, Mary Slessor, was given a call to preach the gospel to an African tribe. She was given the call when she was in her youth, probably no more than 15, and yet she had to wait until she was in her mid-twenties to see that call fulfilled. And this is why I think I have the easy end of things; God has only recently revealed a larger part of what He has called me to do with my life; help others live as He intended. And part of that will begin here in June, a wait of about 6 months total from reception to action.

     Along with this call into a ministry of helps, which I think will turn into a teaching position with a church of some kind, God continues to remind me of other things. One of these other things is something I have tried hard to let go of, to clear out of my mind. I guess...I had a doubt as to whether that was what God was really wanting to do, and not just what I wanted. So...I let go of it. You can only let go of something so many times and have it return before you know that it's what God wants. But...I still had (and have) my doubts, so I asked God recently if it was His idea or mine. And in a way, this is what He said: "I have been planning this from the beginning of the world. It's going to happen, just trust Me and watch."

     So...I guess I can't let that one go :P Not that I want to, but now I know it was fully God's idea and not mine, and it's much easier to hold on to now. Oh, sorry...did I start writing cryptically again? I do that from time to time. And no, this time it no different...I'm not going to tell you what I mean :P